Long time no blog

I can't believe it's been like 3 weeks since I've been on here. Bad Me!!

Obviously not much has been going on for me to blog about. E is keeping me pretty busy all the time. She's crusing around hanging on to furniture and recently began standing on her own, I know it will only be a matter of time and she'll be walking around. That's kinda a scary thought but exciting all at the same time.

2 more months till I go back to work. I can't believe how fast time has gone by. It seems like just yesterday I was preparing to be off work and here it is a year later and I'm preparing to go back to work. We have a dayhome lined up for E that I'm very happy with so far. In May we will go over for a few playdates and such to get her used to it. I hope things go smoothly.

It does suck going back to work for June 2nd. Too bad you couldn't plan these things better and then I could have had the whole summer off with her, it would be so much fun since she should be walking around and really playing by then. Oh well. Maybe next time!

Happy Friday!!

Guilty

Ever just have one of those days that makes you want to curl up into a ball and shut the world out? That is today.

It started last night with E waking up at 3 am deciding it was time to wake up and play. I know I should be blessed that I have a baby who will normally sleep 10-12 hours a night but last night I just wanted to sleep. She was up from 3-5. I wasn't happy about that. She'd cuddle for a bit, I put her back in the crib, leave the room and she screams and screams and screams. I was sooo tired! So I go back in the room and she starts laughing and playing and smiling. Not funny girl. Then as I'm trying to get her back to bed with her screaming D is still in bed, now normally that wouldn't bother me, he does have to get up and go to work in the morning but for some reason last night I just wanted him to get up and help me but didn't feel right asking. Needless to say I was pretty bitter at him for no fault of his own, I should have asked if I needed the help.

So with that E ended up being really cranky all day long. ALL. DAY. LONG. And tonight was the night D was going to the Brier so that was hanging on my head all day long. I just didn't want to do this by myself today. E only napped for a bit this morning and then she didn't want to nap this afternoon, woke up after 40 minutes crying and I knew she was still tired because she was so cranky all day. So I go upstairs and sure enough she had pooped so I changed her diaper and then just held her and rocked her for 20 minutes till she went back to sleep. She soooo needed that. Woke up and happy as can be. Full of smiles, full of laughs. Just my happy girl back.

So then what... now I'm sitting here tonight upset that I was so upset all day long. Feeling guilty for being so tired and feeling guilty that I know I was not myself today. Feeling guilty for being upset with D for not helping me. E is in bed and I'm sitting her all alone surfing the internet feeling like a failure for being upset? Why? Why do I feel bad for being upset? Everyone is allowed an off day yet why do I feel guilty about it?

Tomorrow is a new day, a new beginning!

Oh yes! And tomorrow I get to go see my little brother in a play at the high school I went to! I can't believe he's 16! He's Romeo's father in Romeo and Juliet I'm so excited to see him in the play, in my old drama classroom from 13 years ago!! Oh exciting times!!

Go Flames Go

We're off to Edmonton this weekend! I'm so excited. As soon as D gets off work today we'll be hitting the highway.

We managed to get tickets to see the Flames and Oilers tomorrow night! I can't wait!! Funny we can get tickets for Edmonton but not Calgary! Ever since the flames made their cup run in 2004 we just can't seem to get seats. It's really depressing for me since I've been a flames fan since I was in grade 4 and they beat Montreal in the Stanley Cup finals!! I've loved them since the rest of my family are all Montreal fans it was fun to hang out with the guys and make them made by cheering for the other team! Ok that was a little off topic!

D is a huge Oilers fan and me not so much (Go Iggy Go!). Our seats are RIGHT BEHIND THE FLAMES BENCH!! I can't wait!! Can you tell I'm excited? Our bags are packed with our jersey's and E's sleeper. I made her a sleeper that is half oilers and half flames! I just hope she can make it at the game since it doesn't start till 8 and that is usually her bedtime so please pray for us! Or else we may have to leave early and that would just suck!

We decided to make a nice family weekend out of it, thus our reason for going up tonight. That way we can *hopefully* sleep in tomorrow and relax. Go swimming in the hotel pool, go to West Edmonton Mall, have a late lunch and get ready for the game!

Then Sunday we are hoping to stop and visit my friend in Leduc if her son is healthy since he was sick earlier this week, poor guy. I told D that we should go to Ikea for the $0.99 breaky on Sunday before we leave Edmonton and then we can see if they have our bookshelfs in since Calgary is still sold out of them! Plus, what a nice cheap breaky! LOL

Anyways, I should get back to laundry and packing while E is napping! I'll post pics on Monday of E in her awesome sleeper! Poor girl is going to grow up not liking hockey or liking a totally different team then us!

ta ta for now!

Happy Birthday!!

So today is hubby's birthday! Yup Valentines Day. Thankfully we aren't big on Valentines. I mean for real, why can't people show their love every day. Sometimes I wonder if it's all a show so girls can actually get treated special! LOL Thankfully D makes me feel special all the time so today it's all about his birthday!

D is 36 years old today! I love to remind him that I will never be as old as him!!

I made my first cake from scratch for him! Banana Cream! I'm sooo excited. I'll post a picture later. It looks soooo yummy and smelt so yummy yesterday baking. I got this cool cake pan from Michaels for Christmas it has a heart that is in the centre of the cake and it's filled with pudding! YUMMY!! I hope he can eat it because I don't think it's very weight watchers friendly for me!!

Adding some pics!

New Career

I think it's time to look at a new Career. Yup. I'm going to be a dentist. Ok not really but man that is what I should have done with my life. Let's hope we can get E to do it.

D had to have "surgery" today. I use surgery lightly only because we left 1 hr later. He had two teeth pulled today... 1 wisdom tooth and one other beside it. Seriously... $1400 for 1 hour of work, dang I think we're in the wrong business! Good thing we have coverage between 2 companies or that could have been a nice big hit to our account! You know it's funny. I was looking at the costs. There was a charge of $478 for the operating room! WOW! Maybe I should make an office and just rent it out to dentists for surgeries. The funny thing was... D's work wouldn't cover that fee! So what, they want them to knock him out and do surgery in a van down by the river? Come off it. We pay good money for these plans and if we didn't have coverage through my work we would have been out of pocket for that! It's just crazy to think. Man am I ever thankful for dental coverage.

So a funny little note. D can be quite the comic. Before he goes in he was signing some papers and the dentist was telling us about the procedure and comments that he'll be out for about 20 minutes and then recovery. So D comments, good we have a reservation at Humpty's at 9. LOL Doesn't he wish. He says it wish such a straight face that the receptionist was horrified. The dentist goes you may want to cancel it and in a very serious voice D was like, so should we move it to 10?

So when he's ready to come home they tell me I can pull around to the patient pickup zone go in another door and a nurse will come out and talk to me about healing and such. She comes out and she goes, your husband is quite the comedian, I said yes he wishes he was. Apperantly all he could talk about was Humptys and how that is where we are going. Can you tell he's hungry? LOL So she goes and gets him, brings him out and walks him out to the car. I had to back up a bit because there was too much snow for him to get in and he starts to walk around and says to the nurse "I'm going to drive" she just starts laughing. Yeah sure buddy. I'd like to make it home safe!

We're home safe, he's upstairs sleeping and thinks that tomorrow he'll be able to eat birthday cake. Guess we'll see! The nurse said it should be fine because it's soft. Happy Birthday to him and happy long weekend, he'll be in pain all weekend...... oh I'm so excited.

Jan 1, 1920 - Feb 5, 2009

This post is dedicated to my grandma. She passed away yesterday after gracing the world with her presence for 89 short years.

I'm heartbroken and happy all at the same time. I'm so glad she was my grandma. She was smart, cheeky, funny, graceful and classy. About 5 years ago she was diagnosed with Dementia. But the best part of this is the way she delt with it. She was so graceful. If she didn't recognize you or didn't remember you, she'd never let you know! She'd hold a conversation with you as if she had just visited with you yesterday. (hence you having to tell her the same thing over again). She had the most amazing stories of her time in the airforce and meeting my grandfather and how all the men wanted to date her but she was a shy, timid woman. She danced with Trudeau and wasn't impressed by him. (Love that story). And if she didn't like something you said she'd stick her tongue out at you! That was the best. I wish I could remember all the details so I could share it.

My most favorite memory of her of all times took place June 1988. My grandpa had passed away earlier that year and she got a piano when he died. He always wanted to get her one because she played so gracefully and sung so wonderful. That year I got to finish school about 2 weeks before everyone else (grade 4) so I drove out to Westbank (just south of Kelowna) with my grandma and my uncle Glen. I remember sitting in her kitchen at the table listening to her play the piano and sing. She had the most beautiful voice ever. Well she took a little break and the phone rang and it was one of her neighbours telling her to open her windows wider and to start singing again because it was so beautiful. People walking by would stop at her yard and just listen. Just thinking about that brings tears to my eyes.

She stopped playing the piano about 5 years ago I think. She just wouldn't play it and one of the first times I went over there with Darrell he asked her if she played and she said "I used to, I don't know how anymore" He says really, can I try. And he opened it up and she sat with him and just started playing! We were stunned! She wouldn't play for anyone but she did for him. Then everytime we went over after that she'd be like "Do you want me to play for you". And then apperantly she started playing a little more often. I want that piano. That piano brings me so many happy memories.

My grandma like I said was a cheeky lady. She's funny. After I gave birth to E one of my uncles told her I had a baby. And she was like "WHAT! Is she married?", yes mom you were at the wedding, "Ok good then atleast she doesn't have to rush and get married". So when we took E to go see her when she was about 3 weeks old my grandma was so funny. First off again the comment was "You better marry the father." Yes grandma I already did. "Ok good!" Then she kepted calling her what a cute boy, how old is he. "Grandma it's a girl and she's 3 weeks old" she kept saying it like every few minutes and then she goes "OH yes, it's a girl, oh who cares they all look the same when they are babies no one knows". hahaha Yes that is true, but she's wearing pink, and she goes "So, Glen wore pink sometimes because that is what I had"... that reminds me, we need to bug my uncle for wearing pink.

I'm glad that we got the chance to take some pictures with her last fall with Emma. Mom and I went down and we took some great 4 generation pictures. I will treasure those pictures forever. I'm also glad she was well enough to celebrate her birthday this year with everyone. We got some great pictures there too.

My grandma had the most amazing house in Westbank ever. I LOVE IT! I've always wanted to go buy that house back. Her and my grandpa took amazing care of that house and yard. It was this big 5 bedroom house. They had fruit trees galore. I believe there was 2 cherry trees, 3 apple trees and 3 peach trees. And the softest grass ever. It was like walking on soft carpet it was so amazing. All the neighbourhood kids would gather at her corner lot in the crescent and just sit and talked. She loved it. When she moved the people who bought it didn't take good care of it. I'm sorry but if you buy a house with a big lot, be prepared to look after it! It was so maddening to see it. We went back about 5 years after she sold it and just couldn't believe it! There was cars parked on the grass, half the grass was dead. We knew it wasn't good as neighbours kept in touch with us and her and told her about it. I think it broke her heart. Her and my grandpa bought it when they retired and took such pride in it. 3 years ago D and I were out in BC so I showed him and the new owners started to take better care but it still wasn't the same. Last year we went and I cried. I cried and cried. Someone cut down almost all the trees and half the grass was dead. I just wanted to walk up to the door and yell at them and offer to buy it. One day I will buy it and restore it back to how amazing it was before. That I would love to do but the whole neighbourhood just isn't the same anymore. Funny how things happen like that. I'm just glad that I have spent the best summers of my life there and I will always remember how happy we were to be there.

One thing I wonder about, when you die are you healthy again? Like when you go to heaven are you "back to normal"? The reason I ask this and I'm glad I wasn't there to see it. She saw a picture of herself and my grandpa and she knew who she was but didn't know who he was. That was sad. My mom said everyone was so quiet when she asked and when they told her she just says "Oh, he's cute". LOL Yes grandma he was! I''d like to think when she gets there that he's up there waiting for her asking what took her so long! 21 years almost to the day after he passed away she decided it was time to join him and I hope she is happy to be in his arms again.

Grandma, I love you so much. Thank you for being an amazing grandma. I cherish the times we spent together and will treasure those memories for ever.

25 Random Things about Me

Ok so I was tagged on Facebook to do this and thought I'd post it here too for fun! I wont be tagging 25 people since I don't know 25 people on blogs but if you like it please try it too!

Rules:
Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

1. In May I will have been working at the bank for 10 years.
2. I was in cadets and made the best group of friends ever and it was the best years of my life and I'm not afraid to admit it
3. I enjoy cooking.
4. I hate trying new foods and am a very picky eater
5. I have to type proper sentences when chatting on MSN.
6. I have a hard time making good friends.
7. I wish Darrell and I had more friends to hang out with and not be such home bodies.
8. I want to start going back to church but am afraid to take that first step through the door.
9. My grandma passed away in October 1997 but I think about her almost ever day and miss her every day, hence why Emma is named after her.
10. I love that fact that even though my dad's family was in Ontario and older then me and we were in Alberta I still feel like I know them and can happily name almost all 37 (?) first cousins and who belongs to which aunt and uncle.
11. My favorite memory of my other grandma is sitting in her kitchen the summer after my grandpa died and listening to her play the piano and sing. Her windows were open and the deck door open and the neighbors called asking me to open more windows so they could hear her beautiful singing.
12. Because of number 11 I really want a piano and learn how to play.
13. My favorite movie is the Sound of Music
14. I'm constantly afraid that I'm not going to be a good mother.
15. I'm looking forward to going back to work.
16. I constantly look at houses online to move.... to another city.
17. I really dislike shopping for myself.
18. I always have pinapples on my pizza, it's just not a pizza without it.
19. I don't remember the shade of my natural hair colour.
20. When people disappoint me I wont tell them instead I avoid them for a few days and will hold the grudge for a long time without them knowing.
21. Darrell is my best friend and I don't know how I went so long without having him in my life.
22. I know I can make HUGE money selling Tupperware but am too afraid to make that commitment.
23. I really really really want to go to Disneyland again. (hoping for next year!)
24. I love going on vacations and doing the whole tourist thing.
25. I love scrapbooking and need to get back into it because I'm so far behind.